Things We Don't Understand

Oh, the depth of the riches of the wisdom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable his judgments, and his paths beyond tracing out! --Romans 11:33

I have been hurt by so many people in the past--both intentionally and unknowingly, and I have easily forgiven them. Well, some may have taken longer than the others, but at least, by God's grace, I have bestowed forgiveness and released myself from

Anyway, there are a couple of people that I couldn't seem to release. Maybe because they continue to hurt me, albeit now inadvertently, and they still think that they are right in doing so.

And I can't understand why these things are happening. I would often lament to God about this, because honestly, I wouldn't want to dwell in these negative feelings and get imprisoned with bitterness. Oh how many times have I prayed for them, asked forgiveness for them, blessed them, repented of my sin of unforgiveness, and others, but still, I am often plagued with feelings of resentment.

Then several days ago, I was reading a devotional book and the verse featured was Romans 11:33. Then I realized that yes, God's judgments and wisdom are so deep. He actually knows what I am going through at the moment and nothing is beyond Him.

For now, I cannot say that I have already been released. There is still resentment in my heart. But through fervent prayer, God is working in me step by step. And I have the assurance that God knows what He is doing in my life through the lessons that I will be learning from this experience.